Need Help…

Hi Everyone,

How are you?

As Phoenix told in last post that she has problems in completing the projects, I also face the same problem. I also have difficulties in completing projects, though I am sure that the reason for this completely different for me and her.

She faces this problem due to lack of motivation or she gets bored or starts finding the projects boring. But I face the problem for quite a different reason. I have always been a very closed off person and I don’t communicate well with others. Moreover, I do seem to have trust issues.

This has always been my problem especially when I had to do a group activity. In school, when we use to get projects that had to be made in a group, I used to prefer that I work alone in that project and not take help from others. This happened mainly because I never trusted anyone to do the work with the efficiency that I expected. That does not mean that I undermined anyone. On contrary I think of myself as a very supportive person.

Even in my office, I prefer to work alone and that is the reason that when I resigned from my post, there was no one who knew the work I was doing and I spent almost all of my notice period trying to train others, but I was unable to do so. This happened again due to 2 reasons:-

1.      I was not able to explain others exactly what work I did.

2.      I was continuously thinking that they will not be able to do the task well.

There is a reason why I always felt this way. Since I was young, I have always felt that asking help from others is a sign of weakness and if I wanted to become something in life, I cannot afford to be weak. Though I know in theory that asking help, when required, is not a sign of weakness, yet I don’t know how to stop feeling like this.

The other problem that I have is of communication. This problem also stems from my trust issues. I know that I am a fast learner and am able to grasp difficult concepts very easily. But if I have to explain the same to others, I have a problem because I am not able to judge what the other people are thinking and how easily can they learn the concept.

This problem of communication is effects me in not only official places, but also my day to day life. I have difficulty in talking to others. I appear to be non-sociable person. But in reality, I am just confused about what I should talk to others about.

I really want to change this about myself but I am confused (I appear to be confused a lot these days.. :p) about how should I bring a change. Can someone please help me with this?

Can you please suggest a few ways in which I can become better person?

Waiting for your replies…

A presto!

Arrivederci!

         -Scared Lion Trying to be Brave